Am I anorexic? Please help me..

Hello everyone.. I've been reading the posts in the forums for quite a while now and finally decided that i should really write a post about my problem.

So.. To start off I'm 5 ft (154 cm ??) tall, weigh 88 lbs, Asian, and i have a small-medium frame. My waist is 21-22 inches, hips are 26 i think.

It was the end of January when i started to diet. Back then, I weighed around 97-99 lbs, which was normal for my height and frame. I went on a 1200-calories per day diet while eating healthfully. However, some weeks I would be around 1100-1200 calories average. I didnt do much exercise, but i think i walked around 10-30 minutes each day. In a week, i would eat 800-900 calories on around 2 or 3 days so i can eat more on other days. I started to lose weight, and by March, I weighed 90 lbs. So, it took me 2 months to lose around 8 lbs. But.. It wasn't enough. I restricted my calorie intake to 1150 cals per day, with the normal 2 days of 800 calories. That month, I noticed that my period didn't come despite being very regular for 2 years. I was a bit worried but wasnt really concerned, thinking that it would return soon. In April, I ate 1200 calories per day on average and continued losing to 88 lbs, which is what I weigh now. I was quite happy and decided to "maintain" my weight after seeing that number. My mom noticed my thinness and became worried, saying that im skin and bones. But i dont see that. Yes, i can see my spine clearly, my ribcage (not that prominent), my hip bones, and my chest bones. But, i think im not that skinny. I like my figure, and i even think i should lose more. I bumped up my calorie intake to 1350 calories becuase when entered my stats on a daily requirement calculator, it said 1375 to maintain my 88 lb weight (i think im sedentary - i sit the majority of the day). Being scared to gain more weight, i added exercise in May. One hour on the elliptical, 5-6 times a week, low intensity and low speed.

Oh, i forgot to mention.. My period didnt come in April as well. With 2 months of my missing period, i searched about it a little and ate a little more (never passing 1400 cals average). I thought that would do the trick, but no it didnt. My period wasn't present in May. And that concludes as 3 months of missed period.. Amenorrhea. I became extremely worried for the past week and did a ton of research. During my research, i found out about my possibility of being anorexic, but i dont know.

Onto my eating habits.. I like eating alone. It feels secure, like i can eat anything i want without anyone questioning me why i eat like that. When i have to go out somewhere, i would plan my meals and eat very few calories for breakfast and lunch so that i can indulge in dinner and show people that im eating like a normal person.

This is why i posted on this forum. I want to know if im anorexic or not because from what i read, most anorexics dont realize their problems due to their minds and distorted body image.. Im also very scared of my lost period. I want it back. I really really want it back. Ive added more fats (60-70 grams now) to my diet but i wasnt low fat at the first place. Maybe when i was dieting 2 months ago when i would have no more than 25 grams of fat per day..?

I dont want to go to the doctor just yet because my mom would be super stressed and i dont wanna take pills as well..

Please, please help me.. I really want to get my period back :(

Will i need to gain alot of weight? I dont want to be fatter at all.. But im okay with filling my bony spaces.

Im sorry that this is a long post, but i really hope that someone would help me :(

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